I'm in love with everything this photo represents, and every emotion it makes me feel. If ever there is a reminder, this is it.

As a fashion student there was nothing I found more inspiring than photography, catwalks didn't do much for me, neither did designers, i've always got 'the buzz' from enviable fashion photography. I've always wanted to study both fashion design and fashion photography, I love both, and without the photography inspiration I don't know where I would have found it. It varied from the bloom books found in my college, to the editorials in fashion magazines. I wish I knew where I found all these images, i've had them saved on my computer for about 3 years, there eqsuisite! Theres sometimes nothing better than a sulltry, dark photo.

I need copies of these in my flat. Stunning, looking at them again makes my head start buzzing with ideas already!



16.2.11

Jeez! It's literally been one of those days where anything possible that could go wrong at work has gone wrong! It's put me in a great shitty mood, isn't it shit when your hierarchy blame all on the lower folk! I won't go into detail, but suffice to say it's been an absolute shit of a day!! I'm counting down the last 12 minutes until I can go home, change into PJ's, catch up on ANTM and watch trash for the rest of the evening.

I have some 'happy thoughts' i've been thinking of all day to try and get me through, and I think i'll have to be using them up until the weekend

1. Adele

She is beautiful! Her voice is exquisite, I wish I could go see her (didn't know she was touring until it'd sold out). Her new song always makes me feel like I want to cry ha!

2. My Home

I love my little home I share with my partner, I wish the flat could be a beautiful little house with a garden so I could have a little dog, but it's too beautiful to warrant looking for anywhere until absolutely necessary!

3. Kings of Leon (summer in hyde park)

I've loved them forever! All the way from way back when, from album one until now, I can't wait, it'll be the first time!

4. Foo Fighters (summer in mk bowel)

Enough said.

5. Saving for a holiday (the savings going rubbishly, and we have no idea if/where we can go)

I'd happily go back to Cuba, last year was the first time i'd been abroad on holiday and it was the greatest holiday I could ask for. The beach felt like pure luxury, turquoise water, golden sands! Think i've found my summer destination again.

6. Lazy Weekends (i'm owed one, it's been ages)

February 14th

I'm not a valentines fanatic (however I must state I am a total romantic), never have been wether i've been in or out of a relationship. Last year was my first valentines that I felt there a reason as to why it existed (also the first year I was with my partner), he came home with the most beautiful bunch of  flowers which he spent his lunch picking at a florists! Despite us having already discussed not getting eachother anything (we got cards and wrote loving words instead- funnily enough the exact same card which still makes us laugh), however receiving this bunch of flowers felt amazing, reason being only a few weeks earlier he'd bought me a bunch to congratulate me on a new job, and bought this second bouquet as it was now something special we shared, I never having received them, him never having given them. They made our little flat look beautiful (I did tell him off for spending the money though).

We went out for dinner last night however, to a little restaurant that we went to on a spur evening out sometime last year. We went for a meal to treat ourselves and celebrate us. Treats are a fairly  rare occurrence, spending money on work expenses, house expenses, we usually stay in together, see friends, try not to spend money, which we inevitably never have. We often do romantic little gestures for eachother, and so the feeling of 'having' to at valentines doesn't even play a part in our minds, we enjoy spending time together, doing spontaneous things, showing how much we care on a daily basis, so that throughout the whole year any one of these days could be valentines for all anyone would know. Ive always been a firm believer that if you love someone, you want to show them every day, not just on one commercial day, but thinking about it the commercial day is just for fun, give your loved one a soppy card despite them knowing how much you care, treat yourself to a night at the cinema or a long walk because you want to spoil yourself and do something fun for the day, make time to do something when you usually don't. I don't agree with buying mindless presents (personally), as i'd rather us contribute our money to have an experience, go somewhere for the day, or buy something for our home, this seems so much more romantic, and something that we'll remember.

Single or in a couple I think this day should be for about making time for your loved ones and showing them you care, whether it be partner, closest friends or  family (I have in the past given a valentines card to my parents, just to show how much I love them). Every single person should put on something pretty and celebrate loving yourself! (and someone else if there lucky enough to have your love)!

To my one and only Love; I would never be able to express the extent of what I feel

February 14th

This film was enchanting when I was younger, released in 1997, I was only 9 at the time and loved the story of the two cousins finding the fairies and photographing them. Having not seen this film in years, all of a sudden I have this urge to watch it again, get lost in the magical idea that this could have actually happened.

I love the fairy house they made, I love the story, I love the magic, I love the feeling the film evokes.

February 11th

I am so into ANTM, something about it makes me feel so creative! I think I watched up to series 8 or something religiously, and then whilst at uni (student digs) got out of the loop and started re-watching at series 13.

I rarely care who wins, and don't often care for the drama of the show, but watching the girls get makeovers, the theatrical makeup, hair, styling, the end photo, I love it! I want to be part of that world (behind not infront of the camera)

Two of my favourite contestants are Nicole and Shandi, I love their awkward presence, but absolute beauty! Shandi after her makeover looked so beautiful! Nicole from the begging was exquisite and I fell in love with her long red wavy hair from the moment I saw her. She is the most stunning girl I think that's been on there, there's just something about her. Onto the current series, I think Ann will be a soon favourite, following in this trend.. her photos are astounding, there's something beautiful about her, but she's so awkward any time other than when she's infront of the camera

Two of my favourite photos

Oh I can't wait till Monday to see what photos come up next! Maybe they can go back to more simple elegance like the one above soon, all the photoshopping gets a little to much sometimes (only sometimes, it's incredible what they create) wouldn't it be great to have a photo as great as this of yourself?  Jealous much..?!

February 4th

I don't know why I feel in a rut, I still haven't figured it out. This week all I've felt like doing is sleeping when I get in, exhausted, bad skin, just feeling a bit blue and the weather definitely isn't helping. The only thing that's making me happy in my current state is spending time with my family, and staying in the warm indoors with my mr. On the other side of the blue i'm feeling quite lovey and romantic, and want to do special things, and go for little adventures with my loved one, but without the funds to spare for anything I just need to have a brainstorm and think of warm, lovely things to do, and drink a lot of redbull beforehand. Not quite sure why i'm feeling so loved up and everything (dont get me wrong I always do, and always feel the luckiest girl due to my boyfriend), but at the moment i'm feeling a large additional amount of extra love. Maybe its both of us being broke, stuck indoors due to funds, and the cold and both being completely worn out from work that's making me want to spend more quality time doing lovely things, making more lovely memories. 2010 was hands down the best year of my life (and the last month of 09 meeting my partner), and i'm probably craving this one to be as great, even though we're only a month in! I want to go to Paris, and walk to the Eiffel tower, pass the extraordinary architecture, and have the romantic trip there which i've always longed (ive been on an art trip with school, beautiful but not the same), and I want to wander down the streets of Venice, admiring the buildings, the fashion, mushy mushy :)

A personal one for my partner, I love this film, it only makes me think of him, so incredibly romantic how there eyes catch eachothers, I remember when we first caught eachothers, a strange, funny, romantic story.

I love him far more than words. If romance will get me through my slump, romance it is :)