January 27th

I love this film, I always forget about it, but whenever I think about masks it reminds me of the beautiful dance scenes. When I was young this film was one of my favourites, and still is to date, I used to enjoy watching it, but when the trolls and scary masks appeared it'd always be through my fingers. Theres something fantastic about masks, venetian ones are to die for, I wish I knew the reason behind the haunting, scary looking ones.

Note: Google it. I used to have this really strange crush on David Bowie in this film, and my god how tight are his leggings! Thinking of hitting ebay/amazon to find this now, I need to watch this scene! I may also have to travel to Italy just to buy a genuine mask (not that I need a reason, I have to go there!)

January 25th

Well I was 23 at the weekend, which feels like such a ripe old age, don't get me wrong, in the world of numbers it's still an insignificant little one, but growing up from 13-16-18-21 to now be 23 feels like old age.

In my attempt to organize my life, make myself more grown up a task i've set myself) I have a list of goals to get me through, some mundane, some necessary, some essential, most need accomplishing within the next few weeks.

1. Hoover once a week 

2. Do 1-2 loads of washing a week.

3. Take at least a few photos a week (or people, what i'm doing, anything)

4. Apply to 2 jobs per week.

5. Have at least one bath/pamper evening, where I sit and relax instead of stressing.

6. Complete a book within the next month.

7. Dust off my sewing machine and actually MAKE something

8. Photograph and sell my clothes on ebay, I dont wear them, they dont fit, I dont need them, money I do. 

9. Print off all photographs and put them into the lovely albums I received at the weekend.

10. Try and keep our flat tidier so it's a more relaxing place to come home to.

Note: Extra

11. Organise my life using my diary, look back into my diary to organise my life.

12. Learn how to put little buttons at the top of this blog and make a prettier layout

13. Photograph more on my DSLR

14. Buy more polaroid film complete. Need more now!

15. Finish season 3 of gossip girl.

16. Arrange a date night once a month with the Mr.

17. Save and research for our holiday £100 in piggy so far, gulp.

18. Put pictures up on the wall

19. Archive my old magazines for images/photography/clothing ideas, instead of having them sitting on my bookcase, arranged and never looked at.

20... All I can think of at the moment.

January 21st

Jayma Mays: Glee's Emma has such an exquisite style! Adorable little twin sets, blouses, she hs the cutest face, like a little rabbit. I would love to own her wardrobe.

January 21st

I feel like i'm stuck in a massive rut, i'm so bored with everything going on and craving something new. I always want to be busying myself with something or being somewhere, but I can't afford it, after paying out my rents and bills there isn't enough left over to really be doing anything, and I dont even go out or drink. Last year was an exceptional year, i've never had a great year, every month something great happened, ever month my boyfriend and I, friends, family, multitude of people seemed to be doing something or other, and it kept me from being bored. I need a task, a challenge, a project.. I know its not even a month after Christmas, so moneys tighter than usual, its my birthday on Sunday and im not excited for that. I shouldn't be moaning, I have things great, i've just always felt like this since I can remember, every year ive wanted to be doing things, experiencing things.. blahblah.

Maybe its just the post Christmas-January blues, maybe its I need to be more excited career-wise, who knows. I always feel your never allowed to glum or in a rut if you have things okay.. 

I'm really missing my holiday, its the first time i've had a holiday abroad and the first for my boyfriend and I (except for weekend trips), I liked exploring and being somewhere different, obviously Cuba has it great points, it's secluded, half way across the world, stunning (think white sands, turquoise beaches if you've never been), it absolutely blew my mind! Maybe it's my town, it's a dive that has nothing going for it, it's often on the tv as one of the worst towns in the UK, and when I moved away to uni, I promised myself i'd never come back, I never wanted to, obviously like most I ended up back here, and I know I wont be here forever, as my boyfriend and I will one day move closer to his work, and to London, but the whole place depresses me!! There is no life, atmosphere, anything special, just a lot of too angry- continually drinking and fighting folk, who dont even try to find jobs!

Rant over, don't really know what the whole reason for feeling like this is, I think I just have cabin fever and need to be traveling the country doing mindless things like when your a teenager (i'll fill my weekends with this from now on).

Also on a different.. facebook drives me crazy, I logged on today (been a while), I can't begin to state my dislike for it now, its full of old old photos on everyones pages from years ago, folk noone want to remember, times that were so bad photographs are worse than the memories. If I didnt use it to look at the photos from the last year (I only have them from them now) it'd so be gone. phew.. I know 'moaner' right.

I'll happily go back here (note: first day, and yes I am transparent)

I know i'll have a great weekend with my boyfriend and family though, so maybe my moods lifting :)

Maybe I just need to get out of this town (although I love our little home) with him and go somewhere different just us for a day or so, he seems to be the only one to lift me from this mood at the moment.

January 20th

Warehouse also clearly has a theme running through it, and between the two stores, leather, chiffon and nude colours. I absolutely adore nude and every shade there of, but very few work with my skin tone/hair colour. If i done to wear it something darker always has to be added, today I have a silk(y) nude pussy bow blouse, a maroon/wine coloured cardigan and a black skirt, all which balances out my ridiculously pale, and dark hair complexion. 
I love these warehouse bags, and can't work out which clutch I prefer, more blouses and chiffon.. I don't stray from what I love or know.. win the lottery please? (I would then also purchase a lovely house too)

January 20th

I'm really hit and miss with Topshop, i'll either love or hate absolutely everything in store, and I have a slight problem with how expensive everything now is in there. I remember being able to get an expensive dress for £30-40 once upon a time, and I fel that was extortion (I don't earn much, or have much left after bills)..
There's clearly a theme running through what I do like there at the minute, coral/peach/brown.. I don't own anything brown, and don't really know if it'd suit me, but these shades seem like they'd work, there's also a few patterns, a few chiffons, and a bit of leather thrown in. Now if I was rich i'd splurge and this would all be on it's way to me..... damn

I love the editorials in ID magazine

 

I also absolutely love Tim Walker to death, if I could afford his photography book, i'd have it surgically attached to my hands!

Both are perfection, I love all these images, the beautiful soft colours, the enchanting dreamy feel. I want to know how to do this (amongst a list my heights long of other 'I need to know').

Images via Google.